Oh yes. I'm not done yet. I can write this whole morning away if I wish to.

So, I'm now into the beginning of August. This wasn't a very interesting month.

During summer vacation I had begun to get involved with Livemocha, which is an online language learning community. During the last year or so, I've become fairly interested in learning other languages. I'm pretty sure I want to be a translator, but anyway. I made a few friends to talk to online via Livemocha, which was nice. It kept me distracted and it taught me new things, though I found it rather frustrating, in all honesty. I stayed up pretty late some nights talking to people from China or from India. It was interesting. It's actually really depressing to learn what being gay is like in other parts of the world, sometimes.

At one point, Kaity and I went on an excursion to Wal-Mart to, uh, make fun of the what was inside it. We pretended to be French tourists. It was actually fairly amusing. We stopped by Panera as well, which has become my favorite eatery recently. I absolutely love their bagels, even though they may not be the best things for me.

After that, a few days later, my parents went to Provincetown, a notoriously gay city, without me. They decided that I wasn't worth bringing, and that I would just be a burden for their vacation. I have no idea why they wanted to go to Provincetown anyway. Perhaps because I went there the summer prior? Who knows. In any event, I spent the whole time with my grandmother. As much as I love my grandmother, her house can only be so entertaining. Really. I definitely spent a lot of my time online, on Livemocha, actually. I was pretty pissed off at my parents for that.

So, after that I ended up getting in an argument with my parents. That was fun. I don't even remember what happened. Probably some empty threats were made that never came to fruition, like always.

At around this time, I believe I started talking to Aidan, who is now my exboyfriend. Yay. This was just prior to the vacation from hell, not my parent's vacation, but one with a person who was my friend at the time. The vacation from hell gets its own special entry.

After that horrible vacation, I finally met Aidan, who is Richard's exboyfriend. That mutual relation was a little awkward. Aidan and I became boyfriends then. It was nice. He and I had an incredible amount in common. It was actually really disappointing that he and I didn't work out. Of course, everything is always fun and easy at first. Sometimes, having too much in common can make things boring, I suppose. Distance can be a problem too. Both emotional and physical. Oh well. I really feel like, the only way for me to even be involved in romantic relationships anymore is to forget about the other people I've dated. It's almost as if trying to modify myself is just ruining everything. I need to be more comfortable with who I am, perhaps. It is difficult to change who I am, but it is possible, and I will always change as I get older. Perhaps waiting for other people to change is a better perspective. What I really know, though, is that a large part of me just wants to forget about the majority of my failed romantic endeavors.